Tuesday, January 10, 2012

The resolution trap

It's 2012 already?? I'm not ready for a new year. I haven't even made any resolutions yet. I couldn't even tell you what my resolutions were last year, but they probably sounded something like "loose weight, save money, drink more water, blah blah." By February, I stopped trying. Every year I come up with a different version of the same vague resolutions, and every year I fail at them. Finally, this year, I think I've been able to understand why.

I have a problem with being honest with myself. Even though honesty is a quality I admire in and expect from other people, I have the hardest time being honest with myself (I'm a huge hypocrite).  Practically every day, in some way or another, I lie to myself. When I tell myself "I'll work out tomorrow" or "I'll clean on Sunday" or "I'll get this done tomorrow" and I know I have no damn intention of doing those things, I'm consciously lying to myself. Sometimes I don't mean to do it, but the problem has got to stop, because it's keeping me from accomplishing important achievements and living up to my full potential.

So this year, my main "resolution" or focus will be to be honest with myself (which ties into the whole "finding myself, understanding my personality, being true to who I am and whatnot" issue I've been running into lately). When I address the underlying issues I have with me, it should be easier for me to reach my goals. We'll see how it works out because to be honest, I'm skeptical as to whether or not I can even stick to something as basic as this. Womp womp.

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Cookin' up a storm

Sometimes (albeit very, very rarely) I get into a cooking frenzy. Today was one of those days. I woke up, did the dishes, and started doing my thang.

To get into the mood, I put on my apron, which I got from flirtyaprons.com. It makes me feel like a real chef, although I have almost no culinary ability. I have the "aqua damask," which is adorable.

The first thing I made was a casserole-esque type thing with macaroni, broccoli, chicken, and 4 cheeses (I don't skimp on the cheese). I decided to boil the chicken, because it's easy, and I think the healthiest way to cook it. Actually, I don't know that for sure. My main reason was the laziness. I also boiled the mac, lightly steamed the broccoli, mixed that all together, and mixed the cheese. I layered the mac, chicken, and broccoli mixture, then the cheese, another layer of mac and a final sprinkle of cheese. Of course I forgot to add salt and pepper, but we'll just call it low sodium. I had a little, and it's surprisingly good.

Next I made a double portion of banana bread (because I had lots of bananas going bad). I've used 3 different recipes for banana bread, and I think the first was the best. It's this one that I got from cooks.com and my only complaint is that it's a little sweet, so I just used less sugar. Simple. Since I had so much batter, I used my bundt  pan that I got from goodwill for two dollars. I finally used the bundt pan!

My final dish for tonight will be hummus. Making good hummus is so freaking difficult for me. I've yet to master it, but tonight I will be conquering hummus. I've got the tahini, the vitamix, and my chickpeas at the ready. I'm just going to go with the flow and not use a recipe. We'll see how that goes.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Happy New Year!

Every year I have the same resolutions, one of which is to lose weight. I recently installed the myfitnesspal mobile app. It's easy to use, and I like being able to access it on the website in addition to my mobile device. It can be a revelation when all of the calories I consume are laid out for me. Hopefully, this will be a good tool in my ongoing, never ending struggle to shed pounds, and tone up, and be active.

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